Hey friends! I don’t have any pregnancy news yet but hope this time will be lucky. Of course I hope that for every try but one of these days we’ll conceive and then I get to say “I knew this time we’d get lucky!”
When you try something over and over again with the same result, it only makes sense to take a breather and approach it from a different angle. You see, multiple tests have revealed I’m perfectly healthy. Literally, there are no concerns from my doctor. When you want something so bad and it doesn’t come to you it can only be two things – 1. God is saying it’s not time. 2. Something physically/emotionally blocking you. It very well may not be our time yet so all we can do is keep trying and trusting it will happen when it’s supposed to. But in the mean time, we want to be as healthy physically and emotionally before bringing a baby into the mix.
With that in mind, in addition to my regular acupuncture appointments (with moxibustion) we had a resonance repatterning session this weekend. A friends Mom is a practitioner and came to our home. We’re very open minded people so thought what the heck why not! Here’s a quick description about what it is:
You know what kind of food, music, work, or people that you “resonate with.” But that is just the 5% that is in your conscious awareness. The 95% that you are NOT aware of is what drives your life and can’t be solved with mind alone.
A Resonance Repatterning(R) session uses muscle testing (applied kinesiology) to discover what is hidden within you AND that is ready to heal. It is an emotionally releasing process and leads to understanding, forgiveness, and positive change.
Overall it went great! We really enjoyed the session and feel so much more…balanced. One thing we’re already very aware of that came up is our daily power struggle (picture it – two women, both the oldest of 5, both dominant personalities, you get the picture!!) and then we discussed some healthy ways we can work with each others natural energy and dominance while maintaining individual peace.
Later on in the session she asked us, “do you consider yourselves a family?” We looked at each other, both with great pause, and turned to look at her and at the same time said “no.”
Before you get all in a huff, I’ll try to explain where this craziness is coming from. We’re married and we have so much fun together. Mariel is my best friend and most times it feels like we’re two chicks laughing, exercising, doing chores and DIYing together. When the holidays roll around we spend it at our in-laws house or my younger sisters house – we go to the home that has children. To us, children make a family. What we didn’t consider is that we are in fact a family. As lesbians you spend so much time defending your union to the world, so whats natural and normal to most of you is not to us. We love each other, we’re committed to each other, we look after each other, etc. The baby will not make us a family, we are already a family. It’s important that we resonate with this fact and together make space for our baby in our already formed family. What we feel and the ways that we act towards one another and others the child will pick up on. Our hope is the baby will feel a great sense of love between us for each other and them.
We’re in the thick of my fertile time this month so I’ll have news to share in a few weeks. Much love and peace to you friends.